Anger

I Hopped in the FX and sat next to a couple who seemed to be having a disagreement. Not going further into details about their little spat. He was telling her that she should leave, that he didn't care about her and he wouldn't take her home (bahala ka na sa buhay mo, basta hindi kita ihahatid sa bahay mo). She was insisting that she should come with him somewhere. But he was mad, not listening, he was nudging her and telling her to go home. She was crying.

It was like looking at a mirror. I was that guy, that guy who couldn't rise up and fight that hatred. I knew that it wouldn't end well for the both of them. The girl went home and the guy couldn't even get out of his way to get out of the FX and go after her. Long story short, he was too proud to let the woman know that he truly wanted to go after her. But that's what pride does. it makes you do stupid things. I mean this guy was crazy for allowing this girl to go home alone no matter how mad he should be at that particular moment. He needs to learn the hard way. I needed to learn the hard way.

Basing from experience, the guy truly deserves what comes after that. No explanations needed, he needs to understand that if you love a person, no amount of anger and pride should come in between the relationship.

How do we deal with it then? Anger for me was always an issue. I would blow up with the most simplest issues. This was my defense mechanism, I didn't want to show weakness when i was out of my comfort zone. It is not a sin to show weakness. It is actually a gift to another. Because in this way, you can show another side of yourself, the person that would like to try different things, to take that risk. It is truly a gift i didn't learn to give until it was too late.

Love a little, live a little.

-Chot