I’ve always had a fear that everything would go wrong, this trembling sensation that everything could just fall apart. Knowing this, i have equipped myself with every defense known to myself. A clear stoicism towards other people’s opinions about myself. A keen eye on subtle changes and patterns of communication, and an impenetrable wall that i built up from these fears. But why am i back here in this place? in limbo. Waiting for someone to save me, when I know for a fact that people are going to always keep moving forward, the world will always turn. It feels liberating, and i feel like i’m in shackles. Wanting to move forward but never taking another solitary step.
I always had a fear, but everything changed when you came into the picture. Walls down, and completely vulnerable, I want to be better. Every single day. And I’ve always tried to be, but it was quite impossible when you are comfortable, when you no longer needed anything else, when you give someone your complete trust. You become stuck in an illusion that everything is ok, stuck in your own little illusion of forever.
How do you move forward, then? Continue to work on yourself, be always better, and always do the right thing. You will be surprised how the world will welcome you back once you can, once you can just get swept away all over again.
-c
I always had a fear, but everything changed when you came into the picture. Walls down, and completely vulnerable, I want to be better. Every single day. And I’ve always tried to be, but it was quite impossible when you are comfortable, when you no longer needed anything else, when you give someone your complete trust. You become stuck in an illusion that everything is ok, stuck in your own little illusion of forever.
How do you move forward, then? Continue to work on yourself, be always better, and always do the right thing. You will be surprised how the world will welcome you back once you can, once you can just get swept away all over again.
-c
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