Staring at the ceiling at night, thinking if everything is worth it. feeling the inspiration to write something, its 4:20 in the morning.
What happened this 2013?
Let me say that during the first half, nothing seemed noteworthy, It seemed like it was not living life to the fullest. it is not a secret that I was in a very tumultuous relationship months prior. But let’s not define my whole ‘being' with one failed relationship. in a way, I am really thankful and blessed to have had that part of my story, but things end and I have to accept that.
Family, my constant source of strength, my greatest weapon against all negativity. you keep me going even when the world seems to turn its back on me. You understand me, you love me unconditionally despite everything I am. you give me hope that everything will be ok. I love you, and will do everything for you without question, only say the word.
True friends, my friends till the end, Robert and Mark, you truly helped me through those days where it seemed that I refused to get up, the days when I just god damn nearly gave up, what can i say, i’m a very emotional guy, I wear my heart on a sleeve and I am proud of that. I will never forget this. I hope you continue to find true happiness with Monique and Yvette. I am truly happy for you guys :)
I am happy to say that I am doing better, moved on, loving my life day by day and staying positive. It has been hard to move on, but the journey to it has been a great teacher, full of highs and lows, but totally worth it
Timecheck, 4:32
Toni, you have been such a good friend to me, I will be there for you! don’t even think twice before you ask for help, that random text you sent turned out to be good for the both of us, no bullshit here, I love you! you are my friend till the end for sure! even if our friendship hasn’t even lasted a year.
You taught me that sometimes life sucks, but human nature tends to fight that negativity, it is our human nature that makes us continue to fight, grow and mature. so let us keep growing as our own selves. maybe someday life will suck a little less. but for now, I am just a single call away.
Timecheck, 4:50
PCCVG?
What will my year be without you guys? you made this my most memorable yet. This group has taught me that friendships evolve, from volleyball to a friendship that I cannot imagine living without. Hangouts at Coffee shops from 11pm to 2am, no dull moments, and nothing fake, we don’t hang out because we have to, we hang out because we want to, in no less than a few months, we became sort of a family and nobody can deny that. what made me so attached to this group is the fact that we have many different personalities and professions. nothing is ever constant, even if we do the same damn thing every week, it somewhat feels different anytime.
Cheers, I raise my glass to everybody. and let’s make 2014 even better.
Happy new year
I love and live free, I am human and God is my witness.
-Chot
Final Timecheck 5:04 AM. Good night and God bless.
