Lowest Point

Friends, haven't we all had our share of those days where everything you do seems like a waste of time? that you are just a waste of space? This is a bad place to get stuck on. Trust me, i'm still in this constant battle of deciding whether to go to work or just stay at home and forget the world. This is everyday life my friends. you can either choose to grow, or stay the same.

Experiences define who we are. It either gets you down or it helps you up, simple enough. but most importantly, experiences teach you that even though your life seems so bleak right now, choosing to stand up and live your life will eventually prove to yourself that you ARE WORTH IT, that YOU CAN DO IT. So when the day comes that another experience threatens our will to fight, we know in ourselves that everything will be fine. Fight the urge to quit and learn from the process.

Fight with me, let's live and love life together.
- Chot

Middle

I love and hate you. I check up on you and never want to hear from you again. I cherish moments past and look through these with great disdain. Never in the middle, but always in both extremes.

This is how I look at moving on. It's as if you are learning to fall out of love with the person who you already spent countless moments falling more in love with as time passes. Seems counter-productive, but its the only way. Every waking moment I look to my friends for advice, but even if I want to listen, their advice still fell on deaf ears. I seek the counsel of people who I refuse to listen to. no offense to the reader whom I asked for advice. But I really was a helpless case. 

Maybe I wanted to cry and remain hurt until I started hating that feeling, it seems the only logical explanation. But that was not the reason. "We accept the love we think we deserve" A perfect quote From the book "The Perks of Being A Wallflower" which seems too poetic to mention. It feels so eerie, reading through the messages of my friends, taking that walk through memory lane. Finally, I have learned to accept their love, I have learned to listen to their words. Its all about accepting the love of friends, because without them, I wouldn't be the man I am today and i wouldn't be the God fearing man I am today.

To the lady who made me realize that I am worth so much more.

Of course, you will never be forgotten, and I will never hate you for this. count it to the fact that I respect you even more today than yesterday. But I am happier now, and you should be too.

Love always,

- Chot

Thank you

Sometimes, the world seems so unfair. The worst things happen when you least expect them to. I thank the lord for everything that happened, because without all the unfairness in this world, I wouldn't have known about the UECP Ministry.

Believe me when I say this, Volleyball was the last thing in my mind. problems piled up, wounds so deep I thought would never heal. but God answered all my problems, scars faded and God's presence never left me. Quoting a famous song, "when god ran, he ran to me he took me in his arm, held my head to his chest, said my son has come home again". That's how i felt, God ran to me and he gave me a new set of friends.

UECP Volleyball Ministry was introduced to me by a friend, he knew that i was down in the dumps and he just non-chalantly invited me.

I immediately felt at home, people were truly nice and everybody had common ground. We love god, and we love volleyball, It was as if I finally found a place where I can share my love for both. It was a perfect fit.

Be it that I was not really new to the group since i played there before, it felt like something new, because out of all the things that happened, this was the first time I was again truly happy.

Short blog, but this is to simply thank my new family if i may, I treat each and every one of you guys as family.

Happiness is not something you look for, sometimes it seeks the people who truly deserve it.

-Chot

Cheers! and thank you UECP Family.